Boy that sounds weak doesn’t it, but it’s true I’m counting the days until Leonard gets home. Think that should say something about how I feel. I may be scared of commitment. I took forever to express my love for him because of it. Now I’m not sure what I ever did without him being in my life. Even when he’s not here I find myself looking around his apartment for him when I go see Sheldon. I sit in his chair and watch some odd show or movie that Sheldon finds fascinating just so I can feel close to Leonard. I even went for a walk with Sheldon yesterday in the park. Oh my god that man is hard to get out of his apartment. That walk cost me a trip to the comic book store and ice cream.
It was nice to walk in the park though. I usually take Leonard with me. We walked the same path next to the playground. Sheldon is just like Leonard he avoids looking at the kids playing on the equipment. It makes me believe they relive some childhood nerd trauma each time. They must be afraid some bully may suddenly run up and give them a wedgie. I can see both of them when they were little walking quickly by the other kids not making eye contact. There is little Leonard with a stack of books under his arm picking up speed toward the library. The faster he walks the less chance of a bully taking his glasses or knocking his books to the ground. I grabbed Sheldon’s arm with mine as we walked by. He let me which was strange but I could see it made him feel better. It makes me feel better about being the bully when I was in school. I wonder if Leonard wore a bow tie.
Leonard’s latest email said that things were wrapping up pretty quickly and the whole science team was ready to get off the ship. He joked with me again about being Sheldon’s keeper is like being a crazy squirrel trying to round up loose nuts. I have to say though Sheldon has been very sweet to me the last month or so in his own way. A couple of times a week when Amy doesn’t stay for dinner he invites me over for takeout, I of course must go pick it up but Sheldon always pays. Then we settle in to watch whatever show he’s recorded or strange series he’s bought. Okay so last week he watched some really scary movie and I had to stay over in Leonard’s room so he wouldn’t be alone. He had no idea how many memories that brought back to me. I almost cried as I wrapped myself up in Leonard blue comforter snuggling into what had become my pillow as I pulled his pillow against me wishing it was him. It’s like I said at the beginning counting the days.
Well onto my homies:
Howard, Bernadette has asked me to put a bug in your ear about new pajamas. Though she says the silk short pants ones were cute when you were dating, perhaps it’s time for upgrade. Something that doesn’t say sex starved momma’s boy perhaps, my words not hers.
Raj the new girlfriend sounds nice but it might be a little soon to have me talk to her about how she dresses. I’m flattered that you think I could spruce her up some but you might want to work into that a little slowly. Try taking her shopping. I’ve never been disappointed with a man taking me shopping. Then you can nudge her in the direction you think is more her style.
Amy I see that you have moved a toothbrush, hair brush and deodorant into the guys bathroom. Now let’s see if you can get to use them more often. It’s time to bring some really scary zombie movie over to watch. Then you’re in, well at least you’ll get to spend the night.
Hey chuck glad to hear you’ve been seeing Valerie now. Just remember the golden rule Herpes is like luggage once you get it from someone you never get rid of it. Condoms, condoms, condoms need I say more.
Time to Skype with Leonard, he’s in for a treat just wearing my locket and a smile tonight.